How I went from heart-broken widower to wise guide and mentor

Once You Know Loss You’ve Got Nothing Left To Loose

I had just turned 31, I was newlywed and head over heels in love with my partner and best friend Gillian. We had embarked on our honeymoon and were on the road for about 2 months when all of a sudden, I lost her in a terrible car accident.

My whole world turned upside down. The pain was unbearable. There was nothing that made sense anymore. Nothing that would give me any sort of meaning. All that was left was an excruciating feeling of pain and injustice, loss, and loneliness. All I wanted was to die too. That’s when I lost my innocent belief that the world is inherently good and that life is predictable, controllable, and safe.

My Only Option Then Was To Numb Myself To Stop Feeling The Pain

Hoping to no longer feel that big black hole in the middle of my chest, I ran off and traveled the world. I sold all my business shares, left my family and friends, and went on crazy adventures. I exposed myself to dangerous situations more than once, because I felt that dying wasn’t so bad and, in fact, a pretty lucrative option.

I was fearless, unapologetic, and willing to risk it all.

I backpacked and travelled more than 30 countries, stayed in 5-star-hotels, rode a dirt-bike through India and Cambodia, went on night-dives in the most beautiful protected parts of the ocean, and had orgies full of drugs and alcohol. 

But whatever I did, I could not numb my pain. The nagging feeling of being lost and lonely persisted.

You Can’t Run Away From Your Pain,
You Have To Face It

At one point, I realized that if I wanted to live a meaningful life, I had to turn things around. I had to look inwards, take responsibility, and start my healing process.

So I ran from one workshop to another, always hoping to feel more alive, happy, and fulfilled. I did not want to keep feeling that horrible pain, emptiness, and loneliness.

At first I thought I could do it all on my own, that I didn’t need any help. After all, we as men have heard it ever too often: “Man up! Get over it! Boys don’t cry…”

But here’s what I learned: receiving help does not only save you years of trial and error, it also keeps you from a lot of unnecessary suffering.

Every workshop, retreat, or course brought me some relief, but it never lasted. It was not until I fully allowed myself to feel the feelings behind my pain that I was getting better.

A Deep Longing To Serve

Hurt people hurt people, liberated people liberate others.

To me, liberation is an exquisite emotional state. It’s the opposite of emotional suffering. It is my longing to support you in your process of liberation, shackling off anything that does no longer serve you. I want you to be your most alive, joyful, and authentic self, with full permission to be unapologetically YOU.

Apart from supporting you on your healing journey, I can also help you live your purpose, manifest your dreams, and achieve your goals. I started my first business at the age of 23, making my first million at 35. I learned it all the hard way, which now allows me to show you some precious shortcuts to turn your ideas into gold while leveraging your passion, talents, and ideas, creating a deeply fulfilling and joyful life.

The Royal Path is my heart-project and I’d be honoured to walk this path with you.

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