Finding Healthy, Safe & Epic Love
Finding epic love is one of the biggest achievements of my life. A love that feels exactly the way I’d always wanted it to feel. Recovering from Love Addiction is a journey with many pitfalls and hidden layers that need to be peeled off to come out at the other end of the tunnel.
There was a time when I considered myself pretty far ahead in my recovery. I no longer lost time in dysfunctional relationships, I was fearless when it came to not compromising falsely and I had my vision well laid out. And yet, despite my investment of time, money and energy, I was still unable to attract him.
At one point I sat in my living room writing a letter to him saying: “My love, I have tried. I have looked for you in all corners of this world. I have spent years making myself ready for you and I feel that I now am. And yet, I have not succeeded in finding you. Please come find me! I will be waiting for you.” I lit a candle and went to sleep with a peaceful feeling of total surrender.
Two months later, he showed up. “You have a match!” said a notification on my phone (yes, we met on a dating app!). I opened the profile and there he was. Ismaele. The most loving, sincere, passionate, honest, kind and naturally tantric man I have ever met. He is everything I have ever dreamed of. He is me in a male body. We speak the same language and are both highly sensitive, emotional, and caring with an equally big heart of gold.
This love feels so different. I don’t have to calculate my next moves. It feels easy to speak the truth and be vulnerable. He loves the parts of me that others have rejected in the past, and he makes me feel loved like no one else ever has. It is exciting to watch him be who he is. I feel proud and grateful that he chooses me as his woman by his side. Finding healthy love made it all come together, and I am thrilled to experience the unfolding of our union.